What is going on in this world..!? – The paracetamol challengeΒ 

Recently I read a blog post about this topic ( awesome blog, you can check her out too πŸ˜‰ Recovering Anorexic Fashion Addict https://recoveringanorexicfashionaddict.wordpress.com/ ) and I was SHOCKED! 

The paracetamol challenge 

 “The challenge results in young people daring each other, through Instagram and Facebook, to take excessive amounts of paracetamol and this is a matter of great concern.”

ARE YOU F***ING SERIOUS? I am still speechless when I read it again. 

Young people who should be preparing for life, having fun and dreaming dare each other just for some stupid challenge To take painkillers ‘en mass’ so to speak. 

Around the world, people die in war, kids die from starvation, human beings are homeless because of natural catastrophies, and what do we do in the western world?!? Paracetamol challenge?! This Is extremly DECADENT! 

Sure, anorexia is somehow  decadent too, and pro-ana (I’ll talk about it some other day) is so darn idiotic too but for me this challenge is in the top 10 list for super idiotic firstworld Decadent ideas. 

Are we so bored from having everything we need? Or has our society become so cruel because they are bored? How far have we come that kids starve themselves into hospital to get the attention of their parents? 

I personally hate it when somebody says ‘oh look at her, she’s only cutting/starving/… For attention… What an attentionseeker!’ I always answer with the same question because I HATE the word attentionseeker:


So as you can see: there are two points of view in my mind. But in both you can only blame the western consumption / fun / Entertainment society. 

I am sorry for becoming a little philosophical / political  today πŸ™ˆ but things like that just make me angry. 

I just feel like nobody appreciates anything. People only see what they DON’T have.. All this ingratitude makes me feel sick. Really. At the moment I really try to just concentrate on my teeny tiny world because when I look outside I feel so lost. Lost in a world where faith is only a tattoo, being polite is so out of fashion and where people who are interested in politics and ethnical / philosophical things (outside school) are as rare tigers due to the destruction of their natural habitat. Yes, both die out. 

Well enough for today I guess I could talk for hours πŸ˜› i’ll add some newspaper quotes about the challenge below. Wish you a wonderful day! Enjoy the little things and remember to be grateful πŸ™‚

xXx Katharina ❀️



Being gratefulΒ 


Do you know what is special about this picture? πŸ™‚  

I collected these small purple flowers when I was outside with my dog and it made me happy. I recently start to look for the small beautiful things in life. And it’s true: if you appreciate the teeny tiny beautiful moments in every day, you feel a lot more positive about everything. I can only encourage you: try to collect this moments as if they were golden treasures, write them down somewhere and read through them in the evening! It will help you a lot πŸ™‚

Have a nice day ❀ 

Let me introduce…

I’ll now do something I wanted to do for a while: a text to introduce myself. The girl behind this blog. Myself and not my illness. Because I am not my illness! 
So this is me, in a colorful mixture of pictures …
I am a 18 year old girl (young woman?) from Germany. My birthday is the 15th of july, I’m still in school, but only until june 2015, I’ll have my A-Levels by then. 

After I finished school I want to go to university to study social work (it’s called like that in Germany πŸ˜‰ ) because I want to help the people nobody else wants to help, drugaddicts, homeless, immigrants and so on. 

I’ll move away for university, and I’ll move together with my boyfriend. He is the most important person in my life and he treats me like a princess. He is so polite and I really love him! We have been together for almost 7 months now, which might not sound very much, but we have already gone through a lot and he has always been very supportive!

I have a little dog, a chihauha, she’s called juna πŸ™‚ actually she’s not my dog, but the ‘family-dog’, but I walk her very often because I love spending time outside, in nature. 🌿

Another very important part of my life is ballet: it’s my passion! I started at the age of 4, danced until I was 14, quitted and started again when I was 17 because I had missed it so much. I’m far away from being very good, it’s just my only hobby and it fascinates me. I do the best I can and I really love it! πŸ™‚

I really love 50’s dresses and other vintage stuff πŸ™‚ because I don’t have that much money left (bad me, I smoke) I don’t have so many dresses, but I have 2 that I really love! In future I want to have many more πŸ˜‹ 


One day I want to have kids. This is actually the main reason why I chose recovery. Maybe I want to move to sweden then, with my boyfriend, and raise them there, if it will be possible.

I’m christian. I’ve lost my connection to god due to the eatingdisorder, but I’m determined to find my way back to this source of healing & strength. 

So now you know a little more about the girl behind the lines πŸ™‚ hope you enjoyed reading πŸ™‚

Stay strong! πŸ’•

Wohoo I love it ^_^Β 

 Okay sorry for this kinda random post but I’m so in love with this dress πŸ˜€   

Today my Mum bought me the dress for my graduation party πŸ™‚ I’ll be done with school by the end of june and there will be one last party and I’m going to wear this amazing dress ^_^ It’s cool to have your A-Levels but this dress…😍

Okay stop it here. I’m really not a superficial person and I hate shopping, but wearing these old-fashioned 50’s styled dresses makes me just happy. I feel like myself wearing something like this, I feel like a pretty young woman which is a thought that does not occure too often πŸ˜‰ that’s why I freak out about it that much πŸ™ˆ 

I already have a similar dress, its red and has longer sleeves and it has black dots on it AND  I also love to wear it! 

I know this post is random and maybe uninteresting and probably my language is horrible because I’m tired but I just wanted to share this second cause of joy today with you πŸ™‚

Good Night ❀️

How I saved my day

Hey everyone πŸ™‚

To be honest: 30min ago you would have read a very negative post. Because 30min ago I felt very down. 

But: I did something I will now tell you about. And it is amazing how it works.

I wrote 3 texts. Not too long but very honest. In 2 of them I wrote why I am grateful for having my two best friends, one letter was adressed to my boyfriend. I wrote why I am glad to have them, just a couple of kind words. After finishing I actually decided to share these 3 texts with the people they were about because I wanted to let them know how much they mean to me… You can’t imagine how happy I felt after that! This action made me think about the positive things in my life and sharing it with my besties has just made it better! My mood has drastically increased even though the weather has gotten worse! 



To explain: I have re-downloaded an app called ‘Happier’ which is a community for happy moments. It reminds to share at least 3 things / day that makes you happy. In the app I read about gratitude and there was a link to a video in which they explained a happiness experiment. In the experiment people were asked to write down things about a person they are thankful for in their life, someone who has made an impact on it. They didn’t know what for so they started writing quite long texts. After they finished the guy who started the experiment asked them to call the person they wrote about and read their text out loud. The results were amazing: people felt happier after this call. A lot happier (they seem to have tests to measure happiness… I don’t exactly know how that works but it doesn’t matter here;)) 


I wish you a wonderful day πŸ™‚ stay strong! πŸŒΈπŸ’•